The One That Got Away

I know, I know, you shouldn't cross boundaries, and you definitely shouldn't fall in love with your best friend...but I did.

I even dedicated the song "Lovers and Friends" by Usher and Lil John to this "relationship".

Sigh.

Okay, so for those of you who know me personally, no, I'm not referring to Christopher. The man I am referring to, we'll call him Tyson.

I've loved tyson since I was 14 years old. My dad was and still is very close to Tyson's family. After my mom passed I spent a lot of time with Tyson and his family, especially with his aunt.

I still remember the first time I laid eyes on Tyson. Ever had that feeling where you meet someone for the first time and your heart just starts racing?

Well, that's the effect Tyson had on me. It was in that moment that I believed in love at first sight.

Over the years Tyson nor I ever admitted our feelings towards each other, but we became best friends. I even at one point tried to set him up with my cousin! Yes, silly I know. But, at that time things were good between us and I had learned to suppress my feelings for him.

Anyways, lets fast forward to 5 years later. Tyson and I were talking on Skype when he revealed to me that he was about to become a dad. I was heart broken but I offered my congratulations.

I don't remember how the conversation started, but after Tyson gave me the news we both FINALLY admitted to having feelings for each other. Tyson asked me why I never said anything, I asked him the same....we didn't have an answer.

Anyways, a year or so went by and Tyson and I finally got our chance....we reconnected....you know, romantically. Him and his child's mother were no longer together and I refused to let my chance slip away. It was great.

Tyson and I loved on each other HARD. It was like there was this magnetic bond between us so strong that it couldn't be explained.

It was like our hearts were in sync.

We talked about EVERYTHING, no matter how bad it seemed....we were open about being honest and transparent with each other and it wasn't hard to do.

He was my everything.

Weirdly enough, it took us a while to say "I Love You" to one another, but now when I think of him and those words I still manage to get butterflies. I just can't shake this man.

We had some good times though. Tyson was there for me during my pregnancy, but eventually we drifted apart shortly after Sapphyre was born when he took a job off the island.

Not only did the distance drive us apart, but somewhere along the line, I feel that we started to lose sight of what it meant to make each other happy. Tyson started to not check in as often, and we started being there for each other less and less.

We're still pretty close, but we don't talk as much as we should but he'll always have a special place in my heart and he knows it.

We constantly remind each other of how much we mean to each other.

I don't know if we'll ever get another chance, and I don't know if the chance presents itself if I'll jump on it, because although the feelings are there we have grown apart and it may be hard to rekindle what once was.

I always thought that I would've ended up marrying Tyson, but life, no matter how predictable it may SEEM, don't always turn out the way we expect it to.

But, we must always remind ourselves that there is always a bigger plan...much bigger than we can even comprehend.